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Monday, April 29, 2013

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It sucks that I am so bad at remembering people's faces especially when I only met them once and they don't have any special memory with me. Lately at school, I keep meeting acquaintances by chance, they look at me for a a little while until I caught them and smile at me. I don't smile back.. I turn around first to see if someone's at my back. Because maybe, maybe if I'm not the one they're smiling at and I smiled.. I'll feel embarrassed. And it's the feeling that I hate the most. But when I don't smile and I confirmed that they're really smiling at me, I feel so akdkjahdjashd idk for not remembering them. I'm sure I met them somewhere.. maybe I've been their classmate for that subject, but i don't really remember. HELP T___T I hope these people know what I'm going through. Believe me, I want to remember you. :( My situation is kinda harder than what you think. I don't have this disorder called prosopagnosia though. I've researched and mine's not that serious yet.. I've read that this can also be because of Social Anxiety. and I believe I have this Social Anxiety Disorder. I wish I can improve myself :( I'm graduating in 2 or 3 years and I'll be working soon and this will be a big problem for me when I stepped into the big world.

Anyway, let's move on.

I love 2013! Definitely DKFC was a great start of the year! I'm meeting CNBlue this june (we already bought tickets, yay) and Xander (I wanna buy ticket already) this july! Not to mention, the ticket I'm getting has a really nice package. Fanmeet + Fansign + Picture with him. I cannot wait! I hope I can meet Kibum this year too! And U-KISS, with AJ next time.

I am really happy with my life so far. I got a job offer from jeth, passed my resume and now I'm still training myself. I wanna have clients soon and have money. HAHAHA. XD I hope I wont get a failing grade this term. Only 3 weeks left and it's already vacation. WOOOHOOOOOO. The reality I wanted!!! Hahahaha. I also hope I get the shoes I really want from skechers. "Hidden Wedge" shoes. It's perfect for concerts and I really like it since I'm short. XD I wanna get the red one. It's really expensive at the mall but the price is so-so online idk why. I can't buy online cause i prefer fitting before buying. D: I hope to get it before xander's fanmeet so I can look somewhat taller than my actual height. HAHAHAHA.

Wow this post is getting longer. and there's not even a picture! Haven't written a post like this in forever! lol I wanted to say more things. But I think I should stop now and save it for my next blogpost. Haha. Gotta go and do some subbing now. (Almost finished! *O*) Bye, See you!